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A Letter From The lost soul

I'm not really sure how to start this. I've written it about forty times.

Rose, if you're reading this, I know you're going to say I'm being dramatic. Maybe I am. But I've been holding all of this in for a long time and I don't know where else to put it. My friends have stopped answering when I bring you up. My brother told me to "make a website or something." So this is the website.

I want to be clear that I am not angry. I'm hurt. There's a difference, and I've had a lot of time to learn it.

We were together for one year, seven months and eleven days. I still think about all of them. I think about the good ones, and I think about the bad ones, and lately I think about the ones where I'm almost positive she was somewhere else.

I gave her everything I had. Rides, food, concert tickets, my bed, the benefit of the doubt, over and over and over again.

For a long time I thought it was just me but...

I'm starting to learn its so many more.

That's why I made this page. Not to hurt anybody. Just so the next person knows they're not crazy.

Rose, I still have your grey hoodie. I sleep in it sometimes. I'm not proud of that, but I'm not going to lie on my own website. My therapist told me this is healthy.

I'm dating a phlebotomist now; she's blonde, a little husky, and smells like lavender. And she doesn't even mind that I talk about you all day.

I hope you're happy, because I know I am. I really do. I just wish you had been happy with me.

- The lost soul

The Evidence

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She stood under this sign on purpose. "Drop Dead." I've looked at this picture every night for a week trying to figure out who she meant. She looks beautiful here. That is not the point.

I don't know who took this picture. I didn't take this picture. I would really like to know who took this picture.

She told me she was starting a podcast. There is no podcast. I have checked every app. So who was she talking to?

She dyed her hair red without telling me. You don't change your hair for no reason. You change it for someone.

I have never seen this jacket before. She did not own a leather jacket when we were together. Somebody bought her this jacket.

What Happened

Some of this is from me and some of it is from members. It is NOT everything.

• I think Rose was dating potentially five other guys at the same time. I know I can prove it. Everyone knows she's a floozy.
• She told my nephew he would never make it as an astronaut. He is six and he's since developed a strong sense of apathy.
• Every time I asked who she was texting she said "my cousin." Is he even real?
• She said she was at her "daddy's" place every Thursday. I looked up court and real estate records. Her parents aren't divorced.
• She had someone saved in her phone as "Dentist." I've seen her teeth, are you fucking kidding me?
• She queefed in front of my mom and said it was the couch. It was a leather couch. I wanted to believe her but now I can't.
• She said "love you too" to the Domino's guy on the phone. She said it was a reflex. It was never a reflex with me.
• She told me she was "5 minutes away" 212 times. I kept a log. Average arrival time: 41 minutes. I don't know where the other 36 minutes went. I have thought about it a lot.
• She spent hours every week at "band practice" with her ex-lover. I've driven past the practice space and sometimes I wouldn't hear any music.
• She borrowed my hair gel and never gave it back. She probably gave it to some guy.
• She said she would "never leave." She left. I'm still here.

Member Testimonies

Thank you to everyone who has shared. It takes courage. I read every single one.

Guestbook

FFJ (Mesa, AZ) Oct 24, 2026

I know this page isn't about him but Anthony is a fucking asshole too!

Rhonda (Mesa, AZ) Oct 24, 2026

hahaha I played a show with Rose once and she hit on my boyfriend

Moderator: Thank you Rhonda. If you ever see her again, please tell her I said hi.

Steve (Phoenix) Oct 20, 2026

I actually saw Rose at a Circle K on 7th St with a guy in a Suns jersey. Not sure if that's relevant

Moderator: It's relevant. Thank you Steve. If you remember anything else about him, please email me.

Kevin Oct 18, 2026

holy shit this is so funny

Laurie Oct 16, 2026

Son, you should feel ashamed about this.

Moderator: This is my truth, okay? I've been so hurt.

Joshie Oct 12, 2026

Imma be real I know there's a chance that I could've got chylmidia from someone else but I do think it was her

Moderator: When was this?? Do I need to get tested?? How sick did you get?? Please email me immediately.

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